Change"NJOYING"

We often regret for few things which we have done,Most of the times we blame the consequences or unawareness for making such decisions.Does regret mean failure ?naturally we can attribute failure to this word,the failure to foresee the consequences and Learning from failures is part of life.Now why am i preaching? I  have no idea,I wanted to start the blog with this thought.

There is a sudden qualm about what ever is going on currently ,Especially on the career front its surprisingly has been very quiet,May be its still early days or may be the storm is already over confusion prevails.

We moved to a new apartment our 3rd since we got married ,What makes it different is its our OWN apartment.The fact that its OWN brings a sense of pride.YES! something to boast about.

I came back to write this blog after a week and had to change  the tense of above statement to past.We have been trying to setup the home & probably it will take a couple of months for that.Rightnow everything seems to be vague and its almost as if am waiting for a pitfall(No Positive thinking despite on really high,Or may be i dont get carried away with all these :P).

PS:Now am going to my usual nonsensical mode.More to come soon

CHANGE...CONSEQUENCES...FUTURE

'Making a big life change is little scary..But regretting later is no better ' .

My first bing change in career finally did happen.It was more like "what goes back comes back" in the month of jan i was really upset about the lost career opportunity and a year down am writing this blog as an employee of that company.

Now am i happy having what i wanted 11 months back?  i don't know,Some how i feel destiny has been really kind to me for getting this opportunity and i should work a little harder to fulfill the expectations.Coming months are really crucial will it be a battle for survival or will i perform am not really sure.I really hope i come over these weird thoughts that i have been having ever since i have resigned my previous role where i have been performing @ an exception level well at least  people whom i have been working with thought so :) that i did.

wait the change didn't really end with my career i ended up buying a house yeah"AGAIN" seems odd for a 30 year old(yeah i turned 30 last month..Feels odd but yeah i have entered into the decade of grey hair age and i have a really bad hair loss directly proportional to my stress so i might even end up being bald in a year or 2 and that thought add more stress)to buy a home second time.Am really looking forward on whats on that front having though experienced the worst first time already i know it cant get worse than that.


I had a miserable first half of 2014 and kind of ok till november and some how am ending the year on a high."Times are always not the same isn't it" but yeah i wish the happier times continue ,I really hope that i start posting more +ve and happier blogs in 2015.

PS

Consequences of change are still unknown and future awaits this blog is only about the change so if you are really interested wait for my next post bye and a very happy new year.

This "Subdue" feeling

June already!!

This post is going to be  just a trail of insanity in me,Some times it feels we are surrounded by problems it needs a great deal of hope to fight this feeling,I always wonder when the comparison is right,Should we compare with people who are more successful which leads to this stupid feeling or should we compare with some one inferior to be happy or rather will it make you happy?

Its really funny when you read the situations you end up,Whether it is you being asked to interview a top college candidate  or being asked my same manager to join him again after me assuming he wouldn't see my face for what i have done to him.Am asusual confused abt what am doing currently and what i have to do or rather what i shud be doing, I know you are breaking head reading the post,i have already cautioned with my first line.

Last 3 months has brought a different set of experiences,I have been trying to cook,change my job,change the technology i have been working on ,But still this subdue feeling comes back haunting and i have no idea why?Am assuming a positive vibe would help me get over this  and i have absolutely no idea how this is gonna happen,Am just waiting to write a positive post this year and the current situation seems hopeless.


Am hoping to get my xbox fixed,Read a wonderful novel,Prepare for PMP,May be join another sem and the importantly Buy a flat in the coming 6 months

what does this to do list signify my hope or greediness? i leave the answer to you and eternity until next time :)

'Slope'py year

I have been little busy given the fact this is my first write up this year,The year has not been kind ,it didn't start well with me not well on 31st night coming back from eluru and falling sick thanks to the sugandi water .It was a long pending trip to visit lalli's so called native ;It was a going well until the car broke and we had to stay for one more night , I had to make an assignment for pd apparently to impress Dave to join although I realised latwr that was one good way to get rid of me after  he said he would take me with him to the new company.

The failure to crack s'now was upsetting however the biggest upset was due in Feb for all of us and I don't want to mention that here after a very hectic Feb march was ok although my career seems to have taken a slump considering where and how I was performing same time last year.I have started on my new assignment @ work it seems to be very challenging and although was the best option rather only option.

There are ups and downs in life and this year has been a slope may be a 60 degrees one :) I seem to have hit a straight road just now and though t this is the right time to write something now although I would like to write regularly.

The blog is little special its from my new fone a moto awesome isn't it ?

Wishing for some better times and positive things with new Telugu new yr coming up...

My enduring experiences till now

Jul 2011--Sabarimala hill

-------------- Amid moderate rain i was climbing the holy sabaramala hill,Barefoot on pricky stones pathway.It was not easy ascending the hill,first time and being alone didn't help either.I stopped midway sat down and had glucose water paid the guy and started my ascend,I was sprinting in anxiety to reach the top faster and after about 10 Mins i needed a break that is when a hand fell on my shoulder,He gave my wallet apparently he  was following me from the glucose vendor shop where my wallet fell down and he was asking me to check the wallet if everything was fine,I don't even remember if i thanked this guy properly he was lost in the crowd quickly.


Mar 2011--JFK Airport

----------I was flying back to India,I had to move to an international terminal from the domestic ,While coming i paid(overpaid) a 20$ tip for helping me find the right terminal,This time i decided to find on my own.I had to take a train for that,After checking with the airport inspector i boarded the train but was still not sure about the right terminal,Was about to get out in the in correct terminal that is when a voice from outside asked me to stay back for going to the international terminal saying the correct one.

 There is some thing positive about both these incidents,may be i would have lost my cards and whatever little money i had in the wallet if the guy had not given it back to me and may be i would have gone out at some other terminal and would have come back to the correct one if that person wouldn't have told me.

The faith in god will only increase the faith in the divine intervention.Why am i posting this now? I don't know,May be this is the one way i can thank all the people who have helped me till now.

My College Woes

What happens when everything seems to be smooth in life ?
You tend to assume that your life has become routine and you start thinking you need a change and if your not so intelligent you end up doing some thing like me :)

I was happily chilling on weekends and even weekdays some times and i started thinking i have no goal ,so i decided to join a PG program and with experience the automatic choice was MBA and you can literally buy the certificate from some of the distance offerings.

What have i done? as always picked the hardest and costliest path to PG.:D.Its a course in IIIT which is technically of no value because its not a degree its like a eligibility certificate given  by IIIT to do masters and why did i pick it?:) because i thought i cannot do MBA and will not be a good manager and what happend ?:)

1)Attending classes with a major release in office.
2)Attendance is a mandate and i cannot afford to loose it as it counts of your marks
3)you will have assignments every week with a dead line time with minutes and seconds to upload 
and with a set of rules to follow while making the scripts
4)you write a mid term exam just in a month's time 
5)You realise there are 2 mid term exams and 1 final exam before the sem

and the worst part the course is for 4 years :-O and you will have to get avg cgpa of 7 to get a degree



 Loaded with work in office ever since i took this course i managed to submit 4 assignments in a month and waking up at 3 AM study :-O for exam.


 I started writing this post into a week after picking this course and today after 2 months i realized didn't have time to finish it.

 3 assignments  1 mid sem(with a very bad score)and the second mid sem coming up am just picking up myself to study and its just the beginning am just wondering(rather worried ...) if its going to be a happy ending :-O

And Normal Service continues...

Its been a low key  & routine 2 months except for some good news that Lalli cracked amazon.Its not been easy for her professionally and it was a major confidence boost.I Continue to live on the edge of  my finances while everything we spend seems to be essential to our living :-) ,My office life is no longer intersting with similar work but i seem to be getting into a comfort zone after being promoted 3 times in less than a year..(Without hike) , I know such things happen only with me  never got promoted in GE despite working really hard then I get promoted here 3 times in less than a year without pay hike and if you think it really cant get better than this then i go Onsite to HQ with only a corporate card and end up spending more from my pocket :).Well i always hope things will only get better but yeah whenever you know there is appraisal season coming you get desperate.

The other funny aspect of my life seems to be peope sharing their personal/financial problems with me,Some times i hardly know the person and they would come to my desk and share all their problems including their ctc,hike and bonus some times i have little choice but to continue shake my head  which am really good at.

Am desperate for a vaction but my current finances i thought it would be better to conc on my work rather than thinking abt a holiday ,Am just hoping things would get better in coming months or else its going to be a uneventful year.

I have decided to write more to really break my routine.