Hikened :- )

7th Sep Friday

A Ping from my Manager flashes on the screen
M:Ani can you come over for a min
I have been waiting for this call for the past 2 weeks.Hikes Obviously!!
Anxiously i knocked my manager's door
M:Ani come in!! Please close the door wanted to tell your  hike %
Oh!(is it i know that!) Gave a surprise expression that as if i didnt know.
M:Ani you got 11% hike.
hmm(okay! not bad)
M:I know its pretty less for the kind of work you did and ....
(Got you! you should have never said that sir)
I changed my expressions.Yes 'Same story again may be i should get used to it right from
the start of my career its like this'
M(changed his expression never expected such words from me:I tried my best but for your level this is the highest you would get but dont loose hope have patience
Oh is it its fine then!(What level am i in and how can you decide hike based on designation ).
Will i get promoted ATLEAST?(Alteast?what was that :)prmotion is a big achievement)
M:yes its inprocess will happen

I got of the room with the same werid expression.

Mixed feelings now its a terrific number actually not sure why i reacted like that looking back
i did ok work last year.I always have this confusion of whether i deserve what i have now or
should i be happy with what i got now?
I see people doing nothing and being not happy with their hike and that makes me wonder should i
also not be happy always :)

well for now am happy i need money yes(who dont?) shouldnt compare with any1.If i need more money
i just need to get out of the company.

First Lines

Everyday in my office i ask myself  this question
 am i satisified with what am working on ?
And the answer is always NO.

As a student i always feared what i would be doing when i come out of the study factory with a stamp on my head.

in college strictly an average student in studies who understood programming but didnt bother to understand theory subjects  and being lazy to try different things in programming and happy with my avg marks was never really noticed by anyone.

Landing a job in top mnc was an achievement for some one like me but again it it hardly took any time to understand that you always like others work and your college friends/colleague's pay packet.My bashful nature never really helped me climbing the corporate ladder and the frustration only motivated me to change job but not address the root cause  lazyness and my shy nature.

After some struggle ended up finding a good job and for the first time in my life arrogance creeped in and it only got better when i was asked to travel for the first time in my career but again
it hardly took any time to understand neither your arrogance nor the wonderful emails appreciating
you work are nothing but useless before braggarts.

And your back to your cross roads thinking what next? and you end up asking questions to yourself Is this what life is about?
Even if you climb the ladder are you happy with what you are doing?

And today while writing this am asking this question again and again will i be able to overcome
my lazyness or will i start working and leave it to tomm after 1 hr ?:)

I wish i had a better answer but for now i can say only time will tell.

Now that am finally here for which i have been planning all my life will try to share my day to day experiences and also some of my thoughts which have been strictly for me all these days.